It had been a while since i blog about my life. Its quite hard to let it out since I had to take care of other people's feeling. But have you ever think about my feelings. Its always happen like this to me all the time. People just choose to abandon me because of guys and guys used me to go near my friends. Or am i not doing a good job of being a friend which care too much. Yes I really care too much until I am taken for granted. Everyone is just so used to it until i am treated blindly already. Its because Steph is like that, Steph doesn't mind anything, its okie to hurt Steph rather than hurting my new best friend which has more advantage to get from.
Yes we are humans, we have mistakes, mistakes that hurts people we loves. What can we do when people choose to do this? I have my limits too. But I keep telling myself that i have to control my emotions to keep this friend. We were good friends before and you choose to disown me because you think I am getting in the way of your social life. So what is done is done. You are the one who brought me up and push me down. You were a very dear fren to me, and I care for you as much as I care for myself.
Everything has been drifted away, further and further. The gap is still there, it is getting deeper and deeper. Who is going make the first move to fix it? I tried fixing it, but the result is back to square one. I'm clapping with one hand. Maybe i am not needed or wanted in your life anymore so you choose to slowly delete me from your life. I don't feel that i am special or needed by you anymore and you have to take away the one thing u truly loved away from me. Is it by doing this you feel better? You feel more happier by doing this to hurt me?
I don't know what is happening though I guess is just another bad day.
1. My maple item has been upgrade without my permission.
2. I suddenly tio ks from Xuan because she hate me for being LC to Daph <<< which i don't understand either. Okie here's the case. I ask her why she come ks. She said that i LC Daph so she hates me. I ask her when did i ever do that? She said I call Daph to look at me when I lvl up. So that is consider my lan si for being higher lvl that Daph. So that is her understanding. Okie fine. Okie i would like to ask Daph. Babe am I lan si-ing u when i call u to see me lvl up?? I dont think i did a bad thing? Let me explain, I wanna share my joy with you that is why i called u to look. Everyone does that. Even Ardynn and MarshJr invited us to see them lvl 200. Is that call lan si? You think yourself.
3. I died during she ks me. I wasn't angry when i died. I was angry because she was bullying my party members. For this Xuan blame me for letting Daph die in maple for 2 times because the priest did not heal her. Okie for your infomation I AM NOT THE PRIEST. So i cannot control his character. Xuan said that I and the priest gang up to purposely not to heal her to make her die to become the Queen of Tomber. For God's sake babe do u think i will do such things? Okie then she blame me for not changing the noob priest that makes Daph die. Zzzzz come on, this is just a game, even the priest doesn't heal its out of my control. You think i am superman ar can control everything. I'm just a normal mapler.
4. I borrowed this wand from Daph. I didnt know it was Xuan's. I tought after I finish using it would return it back. Then Xuan suddenly come and Ks again. She ask me to return the wand. I said come this side. Of cuz i wanna stop her from disturbing my members. Because it is unfair to other people. I unequip the wand and i thought she was there. she didnt pick up so another person steal it already. I admit this is my fault for throwing it. I just wanted her to leave us alone thats all. I didnt think other people will loot it because i ask her to come my side already.
5. So I met up with this girl that loot her wand. I begged her for so long and she doesn't admit she has taken the wand.
6. For the 3rd time Xuan came Ks again. I ask her to go to the other map so that we discuss what shud we do, so she would not kacau my pt members cuz they just open the 2xp for pt members. I offered to paid her back 1/2 of the price. She said no. She keep scolding me for loosing her wand. Saying i never use my brains and stuff. But she cannot blame everything me. She is the one that didnt loot. She said she ask me to trade. I didnt see. If she had came and loot it den it will be fine. If she would come and talk to me nicely i would return the wand nicely too. You cannot blame me for being nervous just to stop you from ksing my pt member. You are the one that shudn't Ks people at de 1st place. I know you lvl is higher. You dont because you wanna act that you are so geng come Ks people geh.
7. The next day I came to look for Xuan to settle the problem. Apparently Daph is talking to mango about me throwing out the wand. So i came there to try settling de problem with Xuan. She just ignored me and tong ngor mo tou. I wad having fever that time and I was under 2xp and i wasted 3 hours trying to solve this problem and kena scold and blamed for that 3 whole hours. She said either pay in mesos or Cash. I said I bank in the money to u. The price was like this 120mil for that pathethic wand. 1mil=Rm3 so 120mil=Rm360.
You must me kidding me to give Rm360 to a 16 years old kid. So i offered to pay half of the amount which is Rm180. She said no. She wanted full price. I was keen too so i say no too. She said this to me, people call u eat shyte you dun eat? I replied her this you eat first la, then i watch you eat. I handled it quite well just I think its a bit sad to simply give people money because of the game. But its my fault also la so i offered to pay back. So we negociate for 3hours she even call her sister to come. My side I had no one. Even Daph is sidding her saying if i pay 1/2 price Xuan mm dai wo. Den what about me? I pay her Rm360 i very dai la. No offence babe I'm just saying what I feel only. Try stepping into my shoe that time. She is blasting me with blame and expect me to pay her. I think if other people already off maple and just act nothing happen already. You all must be thinking I'm nuts to pay Rm180 because of the game. I just pity her thats why.
So at last she took my offer and i bank in money to her sister's account.
So problem settle.
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