Suddenly feel something is missing in my life. Have been studying hard for the past few months. Using my brain really drains me off. I rather work by using physical energy that my mind. I feel like I am missing the days that I were working at Palace, I miss my boss, I miss my friends, my colleague, my house at Puchong, going to work early in the morning without seeing the sun, coming back late and miss the sunset. I miss those busy days getting scold for working slow, being wanted so badly to finish up the work, being rush till I cut of my finger nail and didn’t have time to bandage it. Go back to work in the middle of the night, hanging around with my friends which take care of me.

Then finally I get through it by gaming and totally forget my happiness in de kitchen. I've came back to hell, being told wad to do, being command to cook dinner every single day, being control so badly. Other kids just wait for their food to be served on the table and what about me? Do u even appreciate the effort which I put in cooking it? If I want something I need to work so bloody hard to get it. Where is my freedom? Where are the promises which are promised? I am not allowed to do this I am not allowed to do that. Then wtf am I suppose to do???

My computer was my only friend then. I only have it and to like entertain me and attach me to the outer layer of my life. What do you expect me to do? I need friends okie? I need attention I need to be love too... As in like NOW!!! You can’t give me those you can’t blame me for sticking with my computer all day. All you all care is about your son. Wad so ever he does is always correct. He never gets punishment when he does something wrong. To be honest, I never feel that I am family when I am out eating with my parents and my brother. (Without wk that time) It’s like he will gets most of the nicest of the food and on the table, he will get double the amount of food we get.

Every time when I finally got what I want you all just take it away from me. Just like that, it’s so easy for you all to say but it’s damn hard for me to do lo.

I choose family than my very own 1st job which I work so bloody hard to get into a bloody 5-STARS HOTEL. I have sacrificed my youth to cook dinner for you WHAT DE HELL MAN!!! NO I AM NEVER GONNA LET THEM HAPPEN...

I work so hard in studying and finally I score an A, and what reaction you gave me? Haiz I wonder whether my son can get good result a not? I mean what kinda of mother will say such things. Halo mum look at me I score a bloody A for my accounts and all you care is your fucking son!!! Even other people’s mother care more that you do.